I don't know what happened.
All good things eat shit eventually.
I shouldn't have gotten so excited in the first place.
I was warned.
I shouldn't have thought I would be any different.
I just miss the awesomeness I had a taste of.
Now I'm contemplating things I never thought I would.
I'm too attached to leave...
to detached to feel secure.

What happens now?

I need some time alone. Away from everything and everyone. I'm taking a road trip. Solo. I'm the only person I feel ok with at the moment. I have 24 hours paid time off and I'm going to fill my slip out today. Don't be surprised if I disappear for a few days. I'll be back eventually.

You have your own little world and no ones allowed in.
Not even me.

Really...
what's the point anymore?

I'm never going to find what I'm looking for.
I'm learning to be content with unhappy.

I got a job! I'm way excited about it. I start Monday! Soon we'll be able to get an apartment and go on road trips and do all kinds of fun things that involve stupid green paper. And now comes the lame celebration name survey thing.

1.YOUR REAL NAME
Amanda Warf

2.WITNESS PROTECTION NAME:(mother and fathers middle names)
Maria Alonzo

3.NASCAR NAME:(first name of your mother's dad, father's dad)
Lot Arthur (I had to use my great grandfather's name, I can't remember my mom's dad's name)

4.STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Waram

5.DETECTIVE NAME:(favorite color, favorite animal)
Green Pig (sounds real sleuthy...i kid)

6.SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, town where you were born)
Dawn Dexter

7.SUPERHERO NAME: (2nd fav color, fav drink, add "THE" to the beginning)
The Red Lemonade

8.FLY NAME:(first 2 letters of 1st name, last 2 letters of your last name)
Amrf

9.ROCK STAR NAME:(current pets name, current street name)
Darcy Lakecrest

10. PORN NAME: (1st pet, street you grew up on)
Sam Fairlawn

11.YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first 3 letters of real name plus izzle)
Amaizzle

12.YOUR IRAQI.. NAME:(2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, first two letters of your middle name, last two letters of your first name then last three letters of your last name)
Mrdadaarf

13.YOUR GOTH NAME:(black, and the name of one of your pets)
Black Brody

Gemini & Pisces

Insecurity usually ruins this relationship. This can be an extremely emotional union. Unique, destructive, yet passionate and lustful resulting in hurt and anxiety.

lol.
I think we skipped the whole hurt and anxiety and destruction part.

Get out of my head!

you lil' bitch

I am hungry and poor. Please send money to Brandon's house so we can eat. Every little penny is appreciated.

Are teh suck.

Greatest success in my life? No idea.
That I'm still living? Probably.
Lulz!

Nope.

I'm happy with the mystery
And I'm certain that I feel it
Every time that you sing to me

I'm still sad at times but you seem to have this magic way of making me feel better.
It's quite amazing actually.
And that's why I love you.
And your face.
Very
very
much.

Is it bad that I'm highly amused by your angsty perception of things?
Probably.

"and the moral of the story is it all looks terrible
depending on what you look through"

So far so good with school.
I should be hearing back from the hospital by Wednesday.
Which is now today. *fingers crossed*
My interview went extremely well, so half of me isn't worried about it.
But that other half...damn.

Apartment looking is teh suck.
There's always one thing wrong with everything.
The Lover and I are both ready to be out of the parental house.
ASAP.

The puppies are going bye bye.
I'm a bit sad and I haven't even known them very long.
Bummers. I'm gonna miss Cutey face and Kiwi head.
I guess I'll just have to laugh at Stinky's new hair do a lot.

Mokey, mokey then bed time. I've got an 8:00 class. lame.

So, some man was trampled today when he opened the doors of Wal-mart to let shoppers in.
He died.

Are people so obsessed with material things that they'd ignore a man dying on the floor?
Trampled by people trying to save a few dollars on a worthless item.
People are pathetic.

Kimya Dawson!!!


Sunday night...fuck yeah!!

Pictures are like little pieces of memory
that get brought back vividly.
One bright moment in a not so bright friendship.
How did we get to this point?

Yup.

Still

There.


I'll believe in anything

And you'll believe in anything.



Way past my bed time.

So this, along with various other lies, were written on some girl my ages car...
"Obama fights to murder babies"

What?! Why do people feel the need to be so damn ignorant.
I wanted to run that girl off the road.

I bet she hates homosexuals and believes in the death penalty, as well.
Awesome. People are awesome. /sigh

I'm sleepy.
and I need foods!

I feel like I've been going going and going but
nothing productive has been done.

My hair is clean though! yay.
And I'm in a good mood.

I need to remember to take the transcript request form to the office.
They better hurry the f up in mailing it.

I don't think I can stand another semester there.
In fact, I'm not going to stand another semester.

Yay for Bloomington and little blue houses.
That reminds me... I need to call about that.

It's going to be nice to live with someone who doesn't suck.
Awesome people are hard to come by lately. <3!

I'm protesting proposition 8 at the Indy city hall.
Hopefully I'm not the only one standing out there.

Class time.

I'm in a weird mood that I can't seem to get over.
I don't even know how to explain it.
So I'm not going to try.
Just know...

that it's there.

I ate almost a whole bag of flamin' cheetos last night.
Surprisingly, my stomach feels fine.

I also saw brains in jars, brains in jars, brains in jars last night.
It was stinky.

I also got called a bitch and a spoiled princess ass.
I wish you would come up with something new.

I also got to talk to a lovely boy on the phone.
He made my night ten times better.

I need to work on my photoshop project.
It's hideous.

You're a superstar...
at the gay bar.

{Insert beautiful colors, random numbers, Bob Dylan album covers, a random boy, lots of kisses, a flashing sky, awesome hugs, silly movies, lots of laughter, a different persepective, VH1 trailers, lot of mmhmms, feelings of contentment and pure happiness}

That's just a glimpse of how wonderful I felt.

What a wonderful evening.
I got to see my brother, my friends and a random boy.
All of which made my night.

Only thing that would have made it better would have been meeting cakes!!


And to think, tonight's going to be just as awesome.
Things are going very well. :)